The Struggle is Real!

TESTIMONY: April 3, 2023

Did you know that your testimony grows all the time? It doesn't just stop the minute you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. He's always revealing things in your walk with Him to help grow and sharpen you -- I have to share a quick testimony about something that happened to me yesterday.

If I’m being totally honest, Sundays are sometimes a struggle for me. You're probably like, "What?! But you're a Christian! That should be the most joy-filled day of the week!" I've realized I'm guilty of thinking Sundays are invincible from the enemy, and I allow my walls to go down. What I mean by that is that on Sunday mornings, I don't typically have quiet time with Jesus first thing in the morning, since I know I'm headed to the house of the Lord. But I'm learning Sunday is the day we have to battle the hardest, because that's the day the devil really seeks to steal your joy.

Yesterday was a struggle day. I strangely felt numb. It was like I couldn’t truly feel my emotions, and I really couldn’t feel Jesus, even though I knew He was all around me. I prayed all day for God to take away whatever junk I was feeling. I prayed it over and over and over again and nothing was happening. There was no immediate deliverance from the bondage around my hardened heart.

There was a concert at church last night, and 30 minutes before it started, I was on the fence about even going. Thank you, Jesus, for pulling my butt off the couch! It wasn’t until the near end when we sang, “Gratitude” & “I Speak Jesus” that I closed my eyes & sang out to Jesus & soaked in His presence and His goodness that the numbness started to wear off. I began to feel the chains breaking off my heart. I could feel Him all over my skin. I felt deliverance! I cried as I realized I had needed to posture my heart to focus fully on Him & worship Him alongside my brothers and sisters in Christ — I realized it was in His timing I received that deliverance, not my own.

"Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded." - James 4:8

I say all this to encourage you that if you are praying for deliverance from something and you’re in the waiting, don’t give up praying. God hasn’t gone anywhere. He hears you & He loves you and He WILL deliver you in HIS timing. In the meantime, fill your mind with praise and worship, because He IS worthy of it!

Enjoy these songs!!